My spotted mind

So I haven't been feeling very thankful or positive lately. I'm just being honest. I've been pretty down about just about everything the last couple of weeks. Can't figure out what direction my life is supposed to head in; can't seem to get my head above water. I keep listening to all these different thoughts and ideas and philosophies, but I think maybe instead of listening right now, I need to rest. To calm myself and find peace within myself so that I can be a more attentive listener later. I feel as though right now I am wanting to move in more positive directions, but I feel so cluttered and bogged down that I don't take in everything wholly. I need to let the fog lift and sweep the cobwebs out so I can see clearly what is laid before me. My children have been out of control the past couple of days and it's really taking its toll on me. I realize, though, that perhaps they are taking their cues from me since I feel so out of control lately. Perhaps I should work on helping them find a little peace and calm tomorrow to. Story time with my oldest was nice tonight. She was very attentive and focused. My youngest kept telling me she loved me tonight after we had had a horrible afternoon behavior wise, so I'm thankful for that as well. Trying to count the simple things. I think I'm going to work on getting some rest for myself tonight as my husband works all day again tomorrow, so I'll be going it alone with the girls again tomorrow. Here's to peace and comfort and hope.